🎶 Ch.. ch.. ch..changes...

2025 has brought with it, so many changes. 

My employment/Career has shifted a lot. 

I'm in school now. (5 years left in a BA Psychology Program to MSW and clinical Licensure) 

I'm about to be single again, (twice divorced. 😢) and I am moving. Again. (8 moves in 12 years.)

To top it off, I will be attending the memorial service for my Aunt who passed away who I miss so dearly.  And whose absence is felt so strongly. 

I'm exhausted. Mentally, Emotionally, Physically and Spiritually. 

So, what do I do in this latest season of fatigue, uncertainty and pain? 

I continue to trust. 

I continue to pray. 

I continue to Serve. 

Mostly, I continue to be grateful. 

As I reflect on all I have endured in my life, which to be honest, sometimes I think is more than my "fair share"- I will continue to believe in Jesus and follow Him. I want to make myself clear. I follow Jesus. I do not follow-his followers. 

As I go through -yet again- one of the most painful and devastating seasons of my life, I will continue to say "The lord gives and the Lord takes away ... Blessed be the name of the Lord" 

Shall I only accept blessings and not pain in this life? Will I BLAME God for the bad things going wrong? 

No. 

Because all that the Lord "owes" me is what He promised and what He has already completed on the Cross. 

Salvation and eternal life with Him. 

Everything beyond that is a blessing. 

I have been reconstructing my theology for over a decade and there are a number of things I have learned.

But the MOST important thing I have learned is that, Jesus is faithful and He loves me. 

🟠 I am terrified of all the unknowns.

 But I put my trust in an all-knowing God. 

🟠 I am crushed by the thought of being alone, so I cling to an ever-present God. 

🟠 I am stressed under the pressure of making sure my daughters and my needs are met, so I will release that to Jehova Jireh- the God who provides. 

🟠 I am incredibly sad about the dissolution of my marriage, so I reach for the God of Comfort. 

🟠 I am weary and ill from work, school, packing and moving and the emotional toll this takes on my body, so I REST in Jehovah Rofa- The God who heals. 

Despite what my eyes tell me my circumstances are, the truth is that 

I am highly favored and BLESSED. 🥹 

God is so good to me, and He is sovereign. 

I am reminded of Ecclesiastes : 

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

2     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
4     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

BUT 2026…. This is the year of the Lords favor on me. #Blessed 

I bought myself a ring to replace my wedding ring … lt’s sterling silver and labradorite. It’s symbolic. 

Silver can represent healing and new beginnings. 

The stone, is a rock.

 It represents my Joshua or Jacobs pillar, my Samuels Ebenezer. 

The place where I look and am reminded of all the ways God has appeared in my life . Where I have wrestled, or won. Where He has rescued me or provided for me. 

It is this truth, trust, and hope for me that I stand on and move forward with. He will give me beauty for ashes and replace my mourning with Joy. 

SELAH. 

Isaiah 61

The Year of the Lord’s Favor

61 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
    because the Lord has anointed me
    to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
    to proclaim freedom for the captives
    and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]
2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
    and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3     and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
    instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the Lord
    for the display of his splendor.

4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins
    and restore the places long devastated;
they will renew the ruined cities
    that have been devastated for generations.
5 Strangers will shepherd your flocks;
    foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.
6 And you will be called priests of the Lord,
    you will be named ministers of our God.
You will feed on the wealth of nations,
    and in their riches you will boast.

7 Instead of your shame
    you will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace
    you will rejoice in your inheritance.
And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,
    and everlasting joy will be yours.

8 “For I, the Lord, love justice;
    I hate robbery and wrongdoing.
In my faithfulness I will reward my people
    and make an everlasting covenantwith them.
9 Their descendants will be known among the nations
    and their offspring among the peoples.
All who see them will acknowledge
    that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”

10 I delight greatly in the Lord;
    my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
    and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
    and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up
    and a garden causes seeds to grow,
so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness
    and praise spring up before all nations.